Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Day 2 at work as Michelle!

So after the Christmas party on Saturday night, I went to work one last time as Bob.  The truth is that I did not have a pair of shoes that I could wear all day at work so I went out Monday night and found a great pair of black heels that were great to wear all day on Tuesday.  Gaby gave me a pair of pants, a white button up blouse and a black sweater so that is what I wore on Tuesday.  Everybody was asking why I was not Michelle on Monday.  I am still not sure that I can pull this off every day.  My ex knows about the party and she took the girls to the therapist to tell them that I am out fully at work now.  We have told the girls that I will be out full time by this summer but I may have jumped the gun a little now.  Everyone tells me that there is no going back to Bob.  Holy crap this post is just a mess of random thoughts.  I have so much going on in my head right now.  I really feel good about work again.  I feel like I am in charge of my brain again and I am really getting better at focusing on work again.  It is the best feeling in the world when I can just walk around the way I want to be.  I bought another pair of shiny red flat shoes to wear today.  Today I have on a pair of black dress pants and a cute black and grey blouse with a black sweater over it.  

I know that this joy will be short lived.  Very soon the crap will hit the fan because someone will get back to the place where my kids live and they will be hammered with rumors again.  I hate my life.

But I love finally being Michelle in the real world!!!!!!


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